Surprise!

Again should I be surprised? Please tell me the distance I need to be away from something for it not to follow me. I don't even know where I am but yet you can find me? Is there an answer? I should not be surprised for having these thoughts early on. I am so disappointed in my lack of ability to follow my own instincts.

But, now what to do? I am not here, I am not there, and you are not anywhere to be seen. I feel like the cat in the hat needs to come take this fiction for a stroll. Then at least my life might be a funny riddle rather than a ridiculous joke.

Sigh, maybe being so pessimistic is not the right way to be. Yet every time I get optimistic I fall. So how about me move to the left, jiggle alittle out of focus and live in my own world? Hopefully only there you cant find me.